We do not matter very much ...

Is any act small ... I have stopped even thinking in those terms. These was a time in my youth when I used to agonize about how little I do, over my inadequacies and Naren used to call it my egoism. Much later i realized that to give overimportance to ones limitations is as much of egoism as to give overimportance to one's successes. and is as much an indulgence.

We do what we do - given our circumstances. And limitations in our giving are not so much due to material limitations , as mental limitations of insecurity, and greed. And while we do, we pray that we may become more generous, and make our sense of self vaster and vaster to encompass more and more of the world. And as my neighbour Eashwaramma tells me, 'Whatever we do is because of the thought that god gave us'. So even our limitedness is due to the god. And free of that burden or responsibility, we try to become better,

When the mind is sometimes clear, one gets insight of the fact that water has to find its own level and flow from the tanks to the fields. it is not us doing anything - it is the law of nature. but most of the time all of us are trapped in the deep set habit of protecting the money for our and our family's real and imagined needs ...

There is a long long way for each of us to go in our giving ... and it may actuallytake lifetimes before one acheies selflessness.